Enrg.Updt.
Enrg. Updt. - Eclipse Season until October 2022
"Getting Real & Vulnerable with Everyone"
Suppressed Authenticity & Comming out of Self-Denial
Patterns & Unhealthy Influences - Caregivers & Other Relationships from the past are coming back to resolve your unprocessed issues & emotions stuck in the body...
Pain & Illnesses like Cancer & Heart Disease...
Mother & Father Figure - Conditioning & Heavy Programing
Lack Of Financial Support & Abandonment *Right Hip - Father Figure
Lack Of Emotional Support & Lack of Nurturing as a child *Left Hip - Mother Figure
"Deep Hurt" - Criticism and Judgement by Others, belittling, mocking...all this goes with Suppressed Authenticity...
*Anger - especially the one towards Parents
Irritability runs High right now, so be mindful
The Energies:
We are being "slowed down" to discover & understand certain events and difficult periods or circumstances in our lives to make sure that we see it, understand and make a peace with it so we can move forward in a very different way, and honour who we have become in this evolutionary process. Pay attention to triggers.
= You might find yourself in situations that you are not able to tolerate, we are being pushed to face very uncomfortable stuff and The irritability is quite high in people right now. I started to see certain aspects of my mother and my father playing out in my relationships. It's really interesting - I saw this before but this time it's different layers and because nothing exists outside of you, your reality is "all you" so I got curious about what it is that I must have been running in my hologram & in my belief system...
My authenticity has been suppressed by my partner like crazy these days It's blowing my mind - It's like living with my parents again - wow... so get curious guys because we are looking at:
"Self-Value" we are also dealing with Finances on top of that, there is a lot of fear and anger playing out in the collective
Pay attention to your "Defence Mechanisms" too
And explore and research the "Anger Towards Parents" topic...
We are experiencing the old reality we lived in until now quite a lot in a very intense way. But this time you are dealing with certain flavours - or spices in the meal... It's like you are experiencing the aftertaste or the subtle flavours that were left in your mouth after a meal that you ate many times as a child and you forgot the taste... So we are tasting it again...
By now you should be able to see how much work you have done on yourself. *if you deliberately work on yourself, you should clearly see your Value...
We did soooooooooooooo much work on ourselves past 3 yrs or so, It's unbelievable... If you look back the past feels like a very distant memory...
The Body:
various pains in MOST the areas of the body mainly the pelvic region & chest, this vary from individual to individual. It's good to try to understand the emotional wheel and how unprocessed or suppressed emotions manifest in the body as pain. There is no way that you can get rid of a long term pain in the body or illness like cancer if you do not face the emotional entanglement behind it and detangle it...
On the other hand, there is this longing for stepping fully into your own mission but "take it slowly"- the energies are supporting you but not the way you would expect. Sometimes we need to gain a bigger awareness and process certain things that are necessary components for moving forward.
We need to get more patient with ourselves, others, the project we have been working on, the spiritual journey itself, and with how the universe delivers the goodies. The timing is way out of our understanding...
So we are in this strange period of tasting the subtle flavours of our old meal once again so we can get on cooking a new dish later, once we understand the full range of the spices that we want to leave OUT of it...
Examples
Here comes statements from others: "You are like my brother." or "You will never have money." or "You are like your father." or "You are not qualified." It can be anything... And it triggers you, you get angry... If you pause, you will find out that you heard that statement already... from Your Mother or someone else before... It has a very particular "taste." Find out who was it, dig deep... *If your mother told you often that you are like your father, and if she said about him that he is not good with money and he is unpredictable you most likely got programmed like this and this is actually showing up in your reality... Most likely you have a partner that is actually mirroring this to you...
The same comes for pain in the body: You might have a pain in the right hip that showed up out of nowhere or you have a physical accident but that pain feels familiar to you. It has a certain "taste"- and you might go: "Oh, this feels familiar. I know this pain, I think I felt this before, it's almost identical to the time I was 6 and was diagnosed with chronicle rheumatism..." so when you check the emotion behind your sore hip you will discover that right hip is abandonment and lack of financial support as a child and it comes from your father figure because your parents divorced back then and your father didn't support you and your mother financially. Once you see the link and the meaning the pain will go away...
Anger towards Parents:
If you are experiencing anger a lot recently and it's lashing out at others check on your anger towards parents. Because this a big one. Most of us have it and actually, we fear it, that's why we meditate or drink so we don't feel it. There is also sarcasm and all sorts of addictions that go with it... Research this topic there is a lot written about this. Even David Bowie despite his fame once said that he never got fully over his mother's coldness and lack of encouragement. So the anger towards parents is a beast that most of us still carry.
What helped me the most is the fact that before I decided to incarnate it was me who chose my parents, country & culture and technically I chose the whole experience for a reason. Also becoming a parent is very unconscious and most of our parents were and still are unconscious... They also experienced lack and lived in a very different time. Humour is also a good way how to go about it but some things are almost unforgivable... like torture and abuse
I have to say that I have no relationship with my parents anymore, and I definitely don't feel love towards them, I would lie if I say that I do,,, but I do have an understanding of their human journey, their past and childhood, traumas and emotional baggage they carry so I can find compassion at last. I think that is the highest on an emotional scale I can get thought... I have been in physical pain my whole life so I am not sure if I ever reach forgiveness towards my mother because 40+ years of stuck emotions is a lot...
A suggestion I got from one of my friends was: Your Mother did a good job to keep you alive physically so yeah, that deserves a credit... And it could be worse, obviously...
They say to know if you are enlightened go and spend a month with your mother... hahaha The mind of our parents is very rigid so it's a challenge no doubt...
I encourage you to explore your anger towards your parents and get in peace with it.